Sunday, October 4, 2015
Bah Humbug Originally posted November 3, 2014
You know when you are a kid, and your family tries to do the best for you, holiday season is an exciting time every year. Yet, as time progresses through life, circumstances change, family dynamics change, and well overall perspective changes. This brings me to my description of Bah Humbug. As I write this post, Halloween was about 3 days ago, and I find myself really depressed today. Could be from the financial struggle I have put myself through. Or it could be from the misunderstanding about a certain aspect of my life. Or it could be my anxiety getting worse, and perhaps I should get a check up from my Doctor. As you can tell, it could be a combination of all of the above. I need to figure out how to pay back the debt I owe to people as well as figure out this career life crisis thing. I really don't have a clue as to what I should do. I know what I want to do, but it's unconventional, and could get me into trouble in the future. I have been using an outlet for the past 6 years to escape from the bullshit stress I have in life, but not entirely sure that has been the best way to deal with it. I am really not looking forward to Thanksgiving and Christmas. I am only excited for New Year's as it means the beginning of a new year. I appreciate all of the friends out there offering their motivational support. Since losing my first decent salaried job in June, I have been feeling like a failure. I have tried to put up a positive front with job applications, and entrepreneurial endeavors. Yet, the struggle continues. So sorry for being a Bah Humbug this holiday season!