Decided to delete an old blog started almost 8 years ago. Instead of deleting all posts, I will post many that were needed at different points of my life. Enjoy!
One thing 2011 has taught me is that SHIT HAPPENS! The year began pretty well work wise, and in January I had hopes to pay off things looming in the distance. Well, shit happened in terms of bills ruining those plans. Then comes February where I hoped something stable job wise would come along with the temp agency for which I had been working. Well, shit happened, and Office Team has yet to call me up with opportunities. With all of my sudden free time, I went back into panic job search mode, diligently searching and applying. See, as shit happens with unemployment, you start to reevaluate the quest for the "perfect" job.
Fast forward to Mid-March, where NKOTB cruise payment, flight for the cruise, and bills are still looming. I received a phone call from an insurance company wanting me to interview for a job. Now, going into this after the other insurance interviews, I had no intention of considering it. Well, shit happens during the presentation where I begin to realize that if I use my time to get going on this job instead of waiting around for the perfect job, I will be moving forward. I run the news by my folks, well, instead of support about getting a job, I get drama saying that's the wrong decision for me. You see, my folks have been nagging me to move back to where I desperately got out of due to legit reasons, during my employment struggles. Now, I understand where they are coming from, but they still have yet to see where I am coming from. I am happier here despite my struggles, and moving again would only set me back. There's no guarantees anywhere with the way the economy is these days.
With all of these facts, one thing still looms, I need to get my insurance license to move forward with this job. The process would only take about a week or two. However, it costs some money (all of which the company would reimburse me for), and I still have bills, cruise payment, and such to pay. My folks have been helping me out, but they really want me to sell my cruise spot (then again they haven't approved from the beginning of my NKOTB love). I received some news about my tax refund coming any day now. I had planned to use it on the cruise and my class for my license. Still don't know about everything else, because apparently I suck at life by not trying hard enough to make everything work out. I feel in order to get people off of my back, I must do what make them happy, sacrificing my happiness yet again. You have probably been noticing my anxiety/panic attacks lately. I have had horrible anxiety my whole life that coincides with the ADD I think I have, and my quest to be perfect. With shit happening, I am having attacks now, and I have had more than a few people tell me I need medications or therapy. How am I supposed to pay for this? My anxiety would be gone, if people trusted me enough to get going on things. My "soon to be" boss even approves of me going on the cruise. His words were, "We all need to have personal fun time from time to time." This cruise would be the break from my constant stressed filled life I need.
Any comments or advice concerning things? (Please comment here, not elsewhere.)